Rose

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns, the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love, it is a hunger,
An Endless aching need.
I say love. it is a flower,
and you it's only seed.

It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never, learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance.

It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely,
and the road has been too long,
and you think that love is only,
for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter,
far beneath the bitter snows.

Lies the seed,
That with the sun's love,
In the spring,
Becomes the Rose.

Breathe

You were my all,
You were my everything,
You needed me like water,
You needed me to breathe.

I gave you my heart,
I gave you the best of me,
But the closer I became,
The less I could see .

Now it stares at me,
Like my reflection,
It's who I wanna be,
Not who I was.

I want to Breathe again,
I want to Dream again,
Want something beautiful,
To make it all meaningful,
I want to be.

I know your pain,
It kills me to break you,
But I'm waking up ,
and the sky is still blue.

Letting go,
Doesn't always mean your fall,
my story book is better off with pages still unwritten,
but it stares at me,
like my reflection,
The truth you see .

All of the years,
that we were together,
our love was for real,
nothing compares,
Just the hardest part is,
admitting I'm better without you.

We lost ourselves,
to doubt and delusion,
and we couldn't see,
cause we sank to the bottom ,
but I reached to the surface before it could washed me away.

I want to Breathe Again,
I want to Dream again,
want something beautiful,
to make it all meaningful .


I want to dare to live
Give me to chance to give
All that I have to life
All that I am

Nineteen

I'm tired of playing the part,
Of a little boy who, can't use his heart.
I'm broken, torn and scarred,
From all the poison , you threw at him.

But you won't know, cause you can't see,
the tattered child, you've made of me.

You'll follow me, into my dreams
And spit your words, so desperately.
I'll wash my hands of this tragic mess.
And truth can't cure the blind, if they don't care to see,

Nineteen years inside this flesh,
I fought through pain, I've paid my dues,
But that's still not enough for you.
So where do we go from here?
You won't keep me trapped in my fears.

You're sinking in, your selfishness.
We're tainted by, words left unsaid.

Did you even notice, the look in my eyes,
When I spoke of her for the very first time?
And do you remember, when you were my age?
Do you remember at all?

Don't follow me into my dreams,
And spit your words so viciously,
I'll wash my hands of this tragic mess.

But truth can't cure the blind,
I wish you'd change your mind,
But you don't care to see.


A.G

Determination or Desperation?

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something,

 that the only next possible step to do is to stop.

 Leave them alone.

Walk away.

 It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try.

 It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation.

 What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

Lets Leave

Little by little I'm falling under your spell,
Your smile is all I need to see to know,
We'll leave this endless darkness,
So come along with me,
Hold my hand

Back when you first came into my life,
I recall a place that I knew as a child.
A special place, one that I held close to my heart.

Won't you lead me in a dance down this winding road,
where light and shadow entwine to take hold,
of the thoughts of the one left far behind.
Know that I sometimes I want to turn around,
and see the things that I passed on this journey,
But I  know with love on my side,
with courage and pride,
I'll Fight!
I'll carry on!

Little by little I'm falling under your charm,
You'll keep me and all the world far from harm,
Bring hope to everyone,
I think everyone wants to gain eternity,

Even though I pretend not to notice you,
Can't you tell that I'm in love with you,
Can't wait to leave this endless darkness,
so won't you come along with me,
Hold my hand.

Bitter Sweet....

It is, kind of bittersweet, like the smile one would have when they know
they've given it their all,
But the smile can't change, that's the game has been lost,
that smile is the only thing you've got,
but it's enough, to move on

And I could spend forever in your eyes,
I could spend forever here tonight,
and even if you never care for me,
I will cherish every memory , I spend with you.

It is, kind of bittersweet, like the five lines previous and the feeling felt right now
like if you heard, that a loved one had been lost,
but their last words were,
I know this is my time,
I am Strong

And I could spend forever in your eyes,
I could spend forever here tonight
and even if you never care for me
I will cherish every memory
And though I know it's kind of bittersweet,
Sometimes we have to accept defeat,
then ensues the peace like falling snow,
take a deep breath in and let it go,
I am free,


........and I could spend forever in your eyes.

The Hardest Thing

Still framed photograph of you and me together,
Is all I have of me and you any more,
We were so in love and we thought it would last forever,
but in the storm, we were torn.

If I'd only knew the words to say that would make you turn around
I'd say those words to you more than a millions times.
It's been forever, but that hasn't changed what you mean to me.
Darling can't you see?

And I won't forget you
Don't regret you
The hardest thing I've had to do is live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue,
and I miss, I miss you

I'm sorry for all I did, what I said and things I hid.
I'm finally over me..
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave me what it is, now I need you.

And I won't forget you
Don't regret you
The hardest thing I've had to do is live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue,
and I miss, I miss you

Ready for love?

It's been a long, time alone,
I feel the change, like seasons change
I feel the need to let you know.
And if you feel it too
Then maybe we could possibly
Open our hearts and give it a try

I need to know
If this love is even possible
We've tried it once before
But damn I let you go
Back then we couldn't see
But I hope that you can see
I've grown and changed
And I know I'm Ready For love

Invisible

The feeling of having a crush on a girl that you can never have?

It's not a good feeling. Haha. It is like chasing a rainbow... no matter how long you run towards it.. it seems like you're not even close to it at all. Even if you're around the girl all the time, you care for her?  love her? treat her well? serve her? being a listener and a good friend. and she just seem to not notice you? make you feel unwanted and invisible.

Same as if you are in your groups of friends... you're always in the group, you're always with them, you talk to them... but you just don't seem to pop into their heads when they think of people to hang out with. Which results in you being all alone.. and they don't even bother.

How invisible can one get?

Wild Flower

Blooming Wild flower
I beg you, please tell me,
Why do people fight and hurt each other,
Valiantly blooming flower,
What can you see from your field,
Why can't people forgive each other

The rain passed,
And the summer took on blue hues,
All alone now,
You trembled before me,
without saying a word.

When your friends wilt around you,
What do you think?
With your leaves unable to speak,
How do you convey love?

Summer's sun clouded over,
The wind streamed by,
The two overlapped,
I shall sing the proof that you lived,
For the sake of those who have no names.

Consider the Lilies

Consider the Lilies of the field,
How they grow, how they grow,
Consider the birds in the sky,
How they fly, how they fly.

Consider the sheep of His fold,
How they follow where He leads,
Though the path may wind across the mountains,
He knows the meadows where they feed.

He clothes the Lilies of the fields
He feeds the birds in the sky,
And He will feed those who trust him,
And guide them with His eye.

Consider the sweet, tender children,
Who must suffer on this Earth
The pains of all of them He carried,
From the day of His Birth.

He clothes the Lilies of the Fields,
He feeds the Lambs of His fold,
And He will heal those who trust Him,
And make their Hearts as Gold.

Invisible

Words can't describe just how pretty your smile is to me,
How do you define a beauty that you've never seen,
I think there could be something more,
But I'm wasting time,
With you in my mind,
As hard as I try I'm ignored.

I sing a song but you can't hear as you walk by me,
You walk by me and I'll catch my breath,
I'll sing again and I pretend that you might like me,
You might like me but it's all in my head.

I don't know why I just can't stop thinking of you,
It hurts me inside cause I can't figure out what to do,
I've never felt like this for someone before,
Why can't you hear me,
I wish you could see but you don't.





Oh I feel so invisible,
So invisible...

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul. 

Im ColourBlind.

Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end,
Hear me say I'll stand up for my friends,
And I crash to the ground,
And it's just my own sound,
I drop in the blink of an eye.

Hear me say I'll see the sky again,
Hear me say I'll die for you my friend,
There's a noise in the crowd,
But it's just my own shout,
A stumble I fall and I pray.

Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end
Hear me say that I'll stand beside my friends
I won't stay on the floor
I will settle the score
A stumble I fall and I pray

Hear me say it's time we stop talking,
Eye to eye we see a different face,
Yes we we've conquered the war,
With love at the core,
A stumble I fall, but I'll stay,
Colorblind.

Stop racism !

Untitled.

There comes a time when everything seems right,

each little step you take seems alright,

Things seems to go so well,

maybe a little too well.

Then life starts to take a turn,

what you had accomplished came crashing down,

all your effort, blood, sweat and tears,

seems like a waste and put you down.

When all hope seems to bring us up,

there's always despair that brings us down,

What then can bring us back up,

and turn this big frown upside down?

There is someone who is always there,

always around you when you need them,

They will do anything in their capacity to serve you,

Sometimes you just dont notice much of them.

They will listen to what you have to say

and make those tears all go away,

they will love you for who you are,

in each and every passing day,

and makes you be a better person each day.

You may be so caught up in what you do,

you forget to stop, and look around you,

the people that care most about you,

are around to always help you.

So whenever you're troubled or just lost,

you know you have someone to lean on,

And Im sure they always will help you,

As I, have done for you.

Loved and Lost

I fought with love,
and I called her bluff,
but soon I was facing my biggest fear,
cause I walked away,
when I should have stayed,
looked back, but she disappeared.

Screaming out what did I do.

When old memories make it harder to breath,
cause you know, just what you've lost,
and you can't fall asleep cause she's there in your dreams,
but you can't get away from your thoughts,
when she's on repeat in your head,
wishing you could take back things you said,
you've loved and lost,

She comes on by
with a guy by her side
so you say that you're happy for her
but those eyes that you've missed
are directed at his
you try not to show that you're hurt
but sometimes love just gets away

I'll turn around and leave gracefully,
but I'll never stop wishing you'd come back to me.
~ C.

No presence at all..

Sometimes I do wonder, if I were to go missing for few days in class. Will anyone notice?


Lately I feel as though, I'm invisible... I see people acknowledging each other when they see each other.. But It dont happen to me...  Even if I am beside them, they dont see me at all... they see the person behind me... Sometimes, it just Irritates the hell out of me and I'll be left out in anything and everything. You may say that I'm (perasan) or just self centered... but I'm not. If you are in my shoes, you'll know how it feels. Though some may prefer to be alone.... I don't.


Makes me wonder..... where do I belong??


Or am I destined to be a Lone Wolf.







P.S Thanks Chryssasaurus! For today ..  Means A lot =D

Bio PRACTICAL!!

Today I was super relaxed before the exam.. until I found out that I'm sitting way up in the front... ITS so Crappy... Sigh... Just had to handle the pressure of the invigilator breathing down your neck.

Today's experiment was quite easy. BUt alot of uncertainty... I hate those uneasy feelings.. that makes you think twice about your answer.. and the graph that i plotted is different from the whole class... I wish and hope i and correct!  ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Time to CRAM!!.... Good luck to those who are having exams as well

Am i Afraid?

When ever I do something, i tend to think of all the possible worst outcomes. The Worst case scenarios. If I think of talking to a girl, I'll end up thinking how I'm gonna get turn down, or they'll just ignore. Doing a simple project, think of the ultimate failure.  What if those bad imagination came true? would i be able to stand back on my own 2 feet?  

I wish i had the courage to do what ever I want. when ever i want.. how ever i want it to be.

I just wish i could have a nice proper conversation with her.

Food for thought

Things never go the way you imagined it, even if you played your cards right. 

There are just things that you cant control, any time, anywhere, any place , something unexpected can always happen, for better or for worse.  

So if there's is anything that needs done, do it immediately and not procrastinate, if you do, the flow of time can kick you back up to the present and you would have lost your damn chance on doing something right, and you start to regret for the rest of your life.

Life is always full of surprises.
Be ready for it.