Am i Afraid?

When ever I do something, i tend to think of all the possible worst outcomes. The Worst case scenarios. If I think of talking to a girl, I'll end up thinking how I'm gonna get turn down, or they'll just ignore. Doing a simple project, think of the ultimate failure.  What if those bad imagination came true? would i be able to stand back on my own 2 feet?  

I wish i had the courage to do what ever I want. when ever i want.. how ever i want it to be.

I just wish i could have a nice proper conversation with her.

Food for thought

Things never go the way you imagined it, even if you played your cards right. 

There are just things that you cant control, any time, anywhere, any place , something unexpected can always happen, for better or for worse.  

So if there's is anything that needs done, do it immediately and not procrastinate, if you do, the flow of time can kick you back up to the present and you would have lost your damn chance on doing something right, and you start to regret for the rest of your life.

Life is always full of surprises.
Be ready for it.

Randoms ..... Christmas!

Guess having a driving license isn't as fun as I first thought imagine...
Now once that I've got it.. What came into my mind was... What's Next?..
lol... What's next is to drive around Klang few rounds?..
I wonder if this will always happen to me... Having really no goal in life... expecting short achievements  and then asking myself agian. " What's Next?"

So yea, I've finally pass my driving test... after failing once. Everything was Ok except the test on the road, wonder if the officer purposely wanted to fail me, but oh well what's done is done. Coincidentally I failed my undang once too before i passed... So hope i don't Fail my SPM , then have to re-sit for it to pass this time.

I've made plenty of choices in life, some great once, some not so good ones..
and you can't seem to avoid the consequences even though you try ur hardest to,
even if you do avoid it. It will always come back and bite you in the A**. So its better to face it like a gentleman, even if sometimes it means, losing someone you love, losing a dear friend. But if you know it is the right thing to do, Just Do It. and I'm sure everything will fall into place.

Do what is right, and everything will be all right? XD shall that be my moto?
Cause once i sort of offended someone i cared about, and she said she never wanted to talk to me ever again...
I apologized to her... a million times.... and she really did ignored me... for like a week or so.. and then she came back talking to me again. SO i guess if you do the right thing,, everything will be ok.. Even if sometimes its seems like your lost.


Its 25th DEC... Merry Christmas to everyone....   Be good !
All I want for Christmas is.. You....  =)


- Brand-on

I'm not afraid, to let you know,
To take a stand, And let you go,
When the weather turned to rain,
I felt you slowly drift away,
You left me lonely to feel the pain,
Girl I can't believe you'd do me that way

I love you so much, that's why I gotta let you fly,

We had our moments baby, see em all in the blink of an eye,
So spread your wings cuz there's better things, when you sore up high,
And reminisce on this final kiss as we say goodbye...

Should I be saying these? or continue on?
Have you noticed that I'm holding on?
Is it a wasted effort?
you might be thinking " I gave him a second chance and he blew it"
So should I still be holding on?


But till now,
Every time i laid eyes on you,
My heart skips a beat,
So tell me, that your sweet love hasn't died


Maybe I don't express much, 
Maybe I didn't say this often,
You're beautiful, intelligent, caring, fun.. etc
You always bring a smile to my face...
You're amazing just the way you are,
And I'm so happy that you're mine..


Do you believe in third time's the charm? 

Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time

But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
If I made you feel second best
Girl, I'm sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your
Sweet love hasn't died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied
Satisfied

Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind




Even Until Now =(

When a someone of high authority, warns or counsels us about something....
Is best that we listen to it... if not we'll face the consequences....
I've experience first hand of the consequences that came with the warning...
As a result I lost someone dear to me..... and that could've been avoided if I would just listen...

Each one of us has choices to make.. and each carries its own consequences....
Take for example gambling... You either you take the risk or not to bet.... and in the end is either you win or lose.... Each choice you make will have its own consequences whether we like it or not...
So always make your choices wisely.... choices on what you say, what you think, what you do... it will all affect either yourselves or somebody else....

What do you do when everyone doesn't trust you anymore? ....
What do you do when a person accused you of betraying them and doesn't trust you anymore.. .but in reality , you never did anything of any sort that would caused that?....

OH WHEN WILL ALL THIS DRAMA END!!!!!!!
Just because I'm a guy... doesn't mean you can put the blame on me..
Put your egoistic damn pride behind you.... everyone is a damn equal...
yeah you may be a lil older than us but that doesnt mean you can step on us...

Life's drama may be able to shorten my life....
and I'm worried that now im full of it... im gonna die super young...
Help me ~

My Dearest Friend

How do you cherish this bond of friends,
that has been with you through this course of life,
the time will come where we will part ways,
are we ready to face the reality of life.

I really want you to stay
but inside I know you mustn't
for it is your desire to go forward...
my heart says stay....but its my mind i must trust

we shared so much together,
laughter.. fun times... tears..
I wish that we could stay like this forever
the thought of not seeing each other is what I fear.

I know one day we will meet again
to be able to see my dearest friend;
I know we can't see us together again.
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You'll realize that I'm with you along the way